Thursday, May 19, 2005

Referral Letter Of Some Community Service

The immeasurable need to believe

some time ago, maybe yesterday, I remember well, I had an inexplicable desire to go to church and a strange curiosity to dedicate my life to it and become a priest, I made a wrap-up exercise and concluded that my real vocation lucky if it would be a priest, I was thinking several days until the idea eventually cloying, I finally decided to go to church and live the experience. I came to the door and saw his father giving his sermon, I stopped instantly, and instead of my way I sat there, after a while I walked away a little, then some more until you reach the corner of the street; I think that terrified me to see how anyone can lay down his life and his whole consciousness to nothing and try to get something in return. I
I'm not interested in religion or church, but faith itself, the act of believing in something with enough conviction that nothing matters to you. When I realized that I could see that throughout my life I had lived through similar cycles, my adventure Buddhist gang stage, the time skate, my intellectual movement, the revolutionary and visionary current expectations, may be that I am missed a few to mention but these are now come to mind.
I think we need to believe in something, if not ourselves then it will be someone else, when we do our life lacks direction and we just circling extremely small. However, believing in is also something completely abandoning our freedom, when we do we have a free will directed that never end in a successful conclusion. If life is given then sometimes we always have to die to come into existence.

Sunday, May 1, 2005

Fabric Covered Belts Images

Amour, Liebe, love, love, love ...

Sometimes I remember when I was 5, went to school and could only think of one thing, my girlfriend, Anna, were never really sweethearts, but we were always hand in hand and we all teased, maybe it was the first girl that I liked but that was the first person that I felt complete.
After Ana, have spent many, though perhaps only one or two I have really loved, love may be an institution created solely to be tied to something and rule forever, but I believe that there is another kind of love, one beyond sex and very far from the traditional, is something that can not be expressed with words and that leads to madness, I describe as the feeling of being at each end, and no longer need to be able to accomplish anything. You may not move on a lifetime looking for that person that fits perfectly with us, but if we are lucky to find our life will never be the same.
Love is not required, nor is it a habit where affection becomes routine, it is far from reaching the tedium and never disappears. It's what makes us get up at 4 am after getting home at 3, is inexplicable that we do to help without expecting anything in return, which fills us with joy when someone else is the winner, what we does create the impossible and leads us to never say goodbye and always hope no matter what, an upward spiral to infinity.
I think we all know our counterparts, only that we have forgotten, is in us re-find, together we got here and only together can we continue our journey.